You have to understand that even the simple act of giving you access to this is psychologically painful to me. It is similar to tearing open a wound. Nothing in the world is worse to me than revealing to others where my true weaknesses lie. I’ve been led to believe that to be open to others is to invite in pain. It is nothing but an open invitation for people to harm, degrade, and eventually destroy you. There has never been a time when I have self-disclosed and not come to regret it. If I regret it with you, then it must be known that there will be consequences. I never forget, and above all. never forgive.